Burned
Ellen Hopkins
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This photo relates to how Pattyn is feeling in terms of her relationship with her father and her life as a whole: lost, alone, misunderstood. |
Two weeks later, Ellen Hopkins still has me turning the pages of this amazing story. Pattyn, the main character, continues to question her place in this world as the book goes on. As her father's anger towards her not-so-religious decisions progresses, so does her curiosity about where she belongs in this world. As every little thing begins to set Pattyn off, it gets harder and harder for her to control her emotions. Bishop Crandall reports to their household to talk with Pattyn about her recent rebellious behavior which includes getting caught fooling around in the woods with a boy who isn't of her religion and breaking a window after seeing that same boy with a new girl. Pattyn just doesn't understand, Bishop Crandall addresses her parents' worry, and Pattyn snaps right back at Bishop by telling him to "put his advice where his toilet paper sticks."
Soon after Bishop tells her to apologize, she learns her mother is pregnant with another child, except this time, it's a boy. With Pattyn being such a rebel, she is sent off to her Aunt Jeanette's, also her father's sister who hasn't spoken to him in years. She understands that she is causing great stress to her family now, and she accepts the fact she needs to get away from them. Could this be a good experience for her? Will Aunt Jeanette provide her with a better life, or will she begin to question her spot in this world even more now that her father has ridden her?
"I Didn't Want to Go
But they played the guilt card,
Which gave me no choice. I did feel
guilty
about lying to get my way,
guilty
about almost giving my virginity away
to someone who didn't deserve it,
guilty
about the things we'd done instead,
guiltier
about broken windows, broken noses.
And should I somehow make Mom
lose
her baby, I would forever
lose
every inch of self-respect,
lose
every ounce of my newfound belief
that I wasn't born to be a
loser.
So I agreed to a road trip across Foreverland.
With my dad at the wheel."
(page 170)
This poem emphasizes Pattyn's understanding that she just doesn't belong at home right now. Something needs to change, and she sees that. Even though she just wants her father to accept her and love her as her oldest daughter, she realizes that her father has demons he's fighting with his alcoholism.